Monthly Archives: April 2013

Gone.

My memories after the notification phone call are like a strobe light.  Single moments standing still, broken up by dark gaps in between.  This is sort of what that looks like. I am on the phone with the people at the … Continue reading

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Eternal Moments

There are moments in my life that I refer to as “eternal.”  Some of them are trivial, like brushing my teeth.  Every time I stand there staring in the mirror with a soapy stick in my mouth, I feel like … Continue reading

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Unexpected Calm and The Phone Call

The anxiety felt like an unrelenting electric current coursing through the air, through my lungs, all the way into my fingertips.  My mouth tasted like metal; sometimes I spat to try to get rid of it.  My lips were numb … Continue reading

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Closer to Home

Here we go again. JoAnne and Kellie aren’t available to watch the kids until later.  Andrea, my FRG co-leader, says she can go to the brief and will bring the information back to me.  Hopefully someone can help if we … Continue reading

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A Brief Respite

I sped towards Ohio, leaving behind Fort Knox, the memorial service, the FRG, everything.  Earlier that morning I laid in bed texting Diane, “I can’t do it.  I just can’t go to this one.”  As I drove, I could hear … Continue reading

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